Tag Archives: mind

Porn Girl Bella Bellini’s The Psychology of the Voyeur

bellabellinicopyI’ve been working as a camgirl for the past two years and just recently launched my own adult website that is owned and operated by me at www.missbellabellini.com. But I also have a degree in psychology and could register as a psychologist where I live if I decided to go back to school for another year or so and leave the wonderful world of porn behind.

I’m very open with my members and the people I meet on webcam, so most of them know that I’m a few credits short of shrink status. One of the most common questions I get besides what my bra size is, or if I do anal, is whether I’m analyzing my members or using them as some kind of clandestine research project.

Now while I can totally guarantee that I’m not doing research on the perverted mind (because I would hate to ruin a good, fun thing like porn with boring academia), I can’t say that my background in psychology doesn’t help me a lot in my daily life as a cam girl.

For example, many of my favourite customers have fetishes. I have one regular with a foot fetish who loves to spend regular hourly privates with the soles of my feet pointed directly at the camera and zoomed almost all the way in while I tell him how good it would feel to have him slowly suck each one of my toes.

Another guy is too shy to tell his wife that he gets a thrill from seeing women’s legs in pantyhose, so it is easier to come spend time with me to see me stroke the silky tights on my legs and snap the nylon waist band against my skin.

None of my friends are in the adult industry and most don’t have a background in psychology, so I know fetishes like these might sound strange to them. But for me I know that fetishes develop from a natural conditioned response that occurs during adolescence when sexual arousal occurs in the presence of an object, like pantyhose.

People with fetishes might feel shame because society doesn’t accept their special tendencies. And while they might be met with acceptance in a psychologist’s office, a usual therapy session doesn’t usually include an orgasm;) So consider that little ‘perk’ the next time you are considering seeing a professional about a fetish. I can definitely recommend choosing your friendly online camgirl!

Bella Bellini

3 Comments

Filed under Arts, Fun Stuff, Hot News, Irrationality, Porn, Special Guest Blogger

Guy Ritchie, Chi City, and Brain Crack

AlexI recently attended a private screening of the (new to Blu-Ray) Guy Ritchie film Rockn’Rolla (by which I mean I rented it on Blu-Ray and watched it alone). As a director and storyteller, Ritchie stands out among the greatest. His forte is the modern British gangster films with urban flair and stylization; however, he does tend to stray from this formula (especially during his infatuation with Madonna) but I think I appreciate this film more because Madonna decided to leave a genius, steal his style, and chase after Alex “Insult to the Great American Pass-time” Rodriguez. Rockn’Rolla is a great film that takes us right back to the days of Ritchie’s more well-known works: Snatch and Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels. If you haven’t seen it, see it. Fuck Madonna.

Have you heard of Mr. Chi City? Well, MrChiCity3 to be exact. Yes? Well, I’m not surprised. His YouTube channel has almost fifty-thousand followers along with almost four thousand friends. I wouldn’t insult him by calling MrChiCity a YouTube phenomenon, but he’s definitely a YouTube celebrity. The difference, of course is that YouTube phenomenons have existed and are no longer individually relevant beyond what they did (intentionally or unintentionally) in the past. For example: Chris Crocker (and might I add: FUCK YOU, Chris Crocker! You’ll always be a joke and a novelty. We don’t even want to watch your shit when we’re sitting at home, drunk, watching YouTube videos on Playstation), Star Wars Kid, Dramatic Gopher, Tay Zonday (Chocolate Rain) and numerous others that I can’t be bothered mentioning.

Mr. Chi City on the other hand is in your face, but never forces himself (or is forced by other sources) upon you. He’s a colorful–and not in a racist way–character/real-talk-real-life mayne dude who wants to be entertaining and generally wants to communicate with his fans. He’s not a celebrity, he’s a YouTube personality and he doesn’t pretend that he’s better than anyone else, unlike some people. And because he provides me with hours upon hours of comfortably racial real-world comedy, I can do no less than pimp his black ass on this site (I’m not a racist).

Today, I was invited to ponder the notion of Brain Crack, a term coined/invented, I suppose, by ZeFrank of ZEFRANK.COM. This notion stood out for me because I am addicted, not only to the notion of Brain Crack, but also its implications. I am a brain crack addict.

Perhaps I should take a moment to explain. Brain Crack, as I understand it, is defined as the process by which ideas are stored in your brain-case which are potentially decent and well-thought out, but as they remain and develop in your brain for long periods of time without you acting on them, they become too precious and complicated and any action that you take on these ideas will never be sufficiently satisfying to you anymore.

I think this concept adequatly defines my problem. Most of my concepts, ideas, musings, writings and tomfoolery exists solely within my canta-lobes and will never see the light of day. And if they do happen to seep out into a computer application or a dusty notebook, they will never take the form that I truly intended…and that will be disappointing.

Maybe this is a good thing. No, not keeping your potentially brilliant ideas hidden away in the dark swamps of your brain (where vicious, blood-sucking marsh-beasts all resemble a melting wax droid of Sophia Loren…I’m sorry…I could’ve just said “resemble Sophia Loren.”), but letting ideas go, and allow them to take the shape that they do. Your intuitions are probably flawed and unreasonable; the same reason why we stand firmly by the terrible cartoons we loved when we were children.

It’s time to let go. The Brain Crack is destructive and evil. It’s what holds creative and brilliant humans back from doing something that they’re proud of. I’ve tried to start breaking this addiction Cold Turkey and it’s not as easy as I wish it were.

alex G.

Leave a Comment

Filed under Arts, Events, Fun Stuff, Hot News, Intro, Mistakes, Movies, News, Purchases, Rant, Review, Sports, Television, Trailers